Lo

I have been open about what's been going on with the people I'm really close to, though not with everyone due to wanting to avoid massive shame bouts that come with judgment (shame is a big problem for me). This includes my new boyfriend, who told me he was okay with what was going on. I was stupid to accept this at face value, but he was also dishonest with me. - Lo

One day at a time, resentment and righteous indignation are never good ideas, the serenity prayer, and most of all this too shall pass are the four main things that everyone should probably learn, normies too. AA really got them right, and I have dutifully adhered to them entire time, even after I stopped going to meetings. It's kind of a kick to realize how fully I've internalized TTSP and how much it's improved my life. It and Taoism are how I beat my apparently genetic suicidal impulses. They still happen, but they don't even bother me. - Lo

:D w00t! - Jenny

Glad your feeling better. Here's a belated v-hug: (((hug))) - Sarah (or SCarla)

You know, now that I think about the worst days, they seem to have a lot of features in common. Perhaps it is time for me to learn & stop randomly exploding parts of my life. - Lo

Hugs to you, Lo, albeit virtual ones... - Lisa L. Seifert

All I know is that on my last night to "live," I'll put everything I have left in a pile, burn it, and dance around the flames. I've dreamed of doing that *many* times for years now. What will I do the next day? No clue. - Lo

That said, on the scale you're talking about (work references) I'd say go for it. The worst case is you leave it off your resume and have to explain the gap ("during the recession, I took a temporary job that doesn't represent my long-term career goals"). The best is you find out that this industry isn't so bad and you have a new career track that will welcome that reference. - Brad Greer

Good luck, Lo!!! - Ha3rvey (on hiatus)

Don't be nervous! I know that's a trite thing to say, but you are one of the most amazingly confident women I know. You walk your gorgeous ass in there, plunk your resume down, and own that job. - Hookuh Tinypants

rain smells awesome - Joe "The Anvil" Pierce

Lying on my bed, looking out the two windows, listening to the sound. It's pouring. What do you hear? Nothing but the rain. - Lo

I'm too stuffed up to smell it, hee :P - Lo

DAMN. Fly just called & invited me to meet him & enjoy the rain together, on the one occasion I feel too crappy to go get wet. - Lo

:( - RAPatton

Embracing the funk seems to have helped, I feel a bit less lost today. Still sick though, something hilarious happened this morning but it's pretty gross. - Lo

go Lo!! - Sir Shuping is just sir

A brief google yielded the exact same posting in a number of cities, including one in Norway, and a couple were flagged for removal, so presumably there would have been sketchiness once I applied. - Lo

many people go with out, but I wouldn't. - RAPatton

Any kind of surgery, and in fact any procedure that puts you in a hospital for a few days, will cost you a few tens of thousands of dollars. - Tudor Bosman

It was struggling before, in 1950 it was the largest city in the south, but has declined steadily while the rest of the south grew. The corruption is such that if don't have to business there, you don't. Chicago is a functional corrupt goverment and NOLA/LA is an example of one that does not - RAPatton

True that, RAP. Doesn't make it any less ridiculous... perhaps more so. - Lo

(My motives are not strictly selfish... a local group I just met is very into this project, and I promised I'd try to get FF on board.) - Lo

Yaaaay! Thanks everybody! I can't wait for delicious free fruit, and I will think of you all every time I have some :) - Lo

Fortunately my bf's co-op does have wifi, so I can post this. But boy does it suck carrying my laptop up that hill. I'm thinking if I can survive it, this could change my life in interesting ways. - Lo

Hi, Lo -- WOAH! I'm sure you'll survive, and I don't know, maybe a life without easily accessible internet would be better ??? - OCoG of FF, Jimminy

That's what I'm wondering. I'll see for a month or a few, and if it sucks I'll move once I have a job. This is why I wanted a place without a lease :) - Lo

I kind of feel like a hobo, sqautting. Anyone could have just walked in & started bringing in stuff. Nobody cares. I suspect ths may be the most introverted co-op in history. Polar opposite of Superfly's co-op. - Lo

I do wish there was someone to ask about the wifi password... - Lo

Co-ops. Pfff. Hippies. - Adam Mills

The 129 people who live in Superfly's co-op are hippies. These guys are not hippies. This is like an even less classy west dorm, only the guys are apparently pussies... downstairs guy, despite lon hair & constant smoking, has been listening to the Cranberries nonstop. You should visit me sometime, there will be rich "get off my lawn" possibilities. And I'm probably closer to you than most people now... - Lo

Cuddles are very good! I haven't had those in over a decade! - Spidra Webster

Ooh, that sounds fun! I'm always disappointed in the lack of insanity on my Halloweens. And my rowdy muscles are always primed & ready, always! I am the consummate instigator :D - Lo

Nashville is a cool place to visit - RAPatton

I'll be in Madison & see my new home tomorrow afternoon... so nervous! - Lo

Though I still think you were a little harsh to your mom. - Lo

Many years ago I would have won a game show called "Fit Everything You Own into a 1980 Chevrolet Chevette." Not anymore, though. - Friar Will

My very first car was an '88 Honda Civic hatchback. Bought it back in '97 with my own money I earned temping at Oracle during the summer. I loved that car. - April Buchheit

I won "Fit Everything You Own in a Mazda Pickup Truck" back in 94/95. - iTad

Also glad they get some silly time in an extremely tense job too. :) - Steve C, Team Marina

Was expecting "B.O.B." but I guess that would be poor taste :) - Brad Greer

just one? - Sir Shuping is just sir

"Some more what?" "You're killing me, Smalls!" - Kevin L

After all that delicious food for lunch/dinner, I could only pack one away. And then even after smoking pot, I still didn't have room for a cupcake :( So now I'm having cupcakes for breakfast! - Lo

Oh, moving is bad. But my packing isn't so bad. It helps that I just moved & have been traveling ever since, so my stuff isn't settled into someplace. - Lo

No... no. I'm flabbergasted that I started 2 days before leaving, instead of the night before. Packing is one of the most uncomfortable, emotionally draining tasks there is for me. Which is interesting, because I've done it SO many times. - Lo

Awesome, thanks! - Lo

I can vouch for Backupify. I got the free 10GB one. Don't know how fast that will fill up. - AJ Batac

It can be fixed, I can get COBRA retroactively, and the pay was not enough to fight over, but I am NEVER, EVER speaking to anyone from my company - sorry, EX company - again. If they need more work done, tough shit. - Lo

When it comes to the BBB, though, this would really be the tip of the iceberg... I've seen him lie to & screw over so many people. There was one customer where I wanted to warn them not to do business with us, and would have if it didn't mean risking my job/paying rent. - Lo

The best part is that the Boston Creme cupcakes have an "S" on them :D (in case the Ben & Jerry's orgy didn't tip you off, I'm a fanatic for boston creme anything!) - Lo

My first idea for a cupcake, a french vanilla cupcake with banana buttercream frosting and crushed shortbread cookies. - Chris Topher

WOOT! - Mary Carmen

I admit I'm pretty annoyed that I got the run-around for almost a month, and then the room promised to me was given away to someone else TWICE, leaving me stuck on the ground floor (which will probably be colder in winter, sigh). And I have to stay in the guest room for a month & a half before I even get that ground-floor room. But it's better than arriving in a new state with nowhere to stay! - Lo

Yes, they are... *grumble* Don't mind me, my first thought on waking up this morning was that I have less than three days to pack, and I haven't updated my resume, I don't know if I have health insurance, and I'm apparently not going to be paid for working during the knit-in. Maybe some cupcakes will improve my attitude... - Lo

Cupcakes consumed, OPTIMISM REATTAINED. I get to hold my love again in 5 days, 4 hours, and 40 minutes. Huzzah! - Lo

But then afterwards those kids were all crying... it was such a shock. I don't think it even occurred to us kids that it was even possible for something to go wrong. Shuttle days were just fun days. - Lo

I would be giving you my bank account details before you finished the sentence. - Matt G

I'd need to read the fine print. What would, as Warlord put it, deny me access to sunset. What would happen if I were driving west and got stuck in traffic at the wrong time? Or would I simply be incarcerated to prevent such chances? Would be lose all memory of time while the sun sets each day? - Sarah (or SCarla)

That's a good outlook to have, Lo. :) - Jenny

You can rock it a little. I know how to swim.:D Sometimes I think if I had kids, I'd try to force them to spend at least a few months living on the edge of homelessness with no apparently security net... it sucked, but ever since I'm a lot less scared of insecurity. - Lo

This part in particular: "Negatively, make a list of what you have intended to do for a long time and haven't done. Then discuss with yourself first and then with friends what you would really like to do instead of what you have been considering as goals that really weren't. For example, if you've said you were going to go back to school or take a class in something, you very likely don't want to do it (that's why you didn't!) Can you get in touch with what you would really like to do?" - Lo